My songs are not necessarily always coming from MY perspective, and I try and add a little ironic humor or some sort of unique literary touch to make it kinda... funny. Well, anyway, this is the latest one!

Christmas Day, 2007

Verse One
Have you heard the expression,
'when it rains it pours'
well lets just say,
lets just say there has been some
flood damage here

and I haven't had the time
I haven't had the time
to start picking up
the mess I have made

so now, I like to I refer to myself,
as a Picasso like masterpiece.
I hope you don't mind...
the mess

Chorus
let yesterday be yesterday
and today be today
tomorrow will be what you make of it
I care to be in yours if you don't mind...
...but hello today

Verse Two
I'm slow and steady
calculated and careful
I've trusted everyone
and learned to trust no one

why are so many
so quick to be judging?
as if put in Medea's position they would know
...black from white...
...or the noble response...
to a love now lost
or a sacrifice now forgotten at its cost

Chorus
But let yesterday be yesterday
and today be today
tomorrow will be what you make of it
I'd like to be in yours a bit
lets not get carried away

But Let yesterday be yesterday
and today be today
tomorrow will be what we make of it
Do you have plans for it?
(I'd be apart of them)
come what may.

When it's dark enough, you can see the stars. -Persian Proverb

...The young lions suffer want and hunger; but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing. Psalm 34:10

Today I was challenged by those words and also these, "Seek peace, and pursue it. Seek a right relationship with one another". I have done a great job this semester writing off relationships that have hurt me, or excluded me or made me jealous in the past. I didn't intend to do those things, my intentions were just to step back from those relationships and receive some clarity. Unfortunately intentions are only just that: intentions. So as I moved back to have a more objective look at those relationships, I liked getting away and having the capability to not feel pain or jealousy or sadness or rage. Now I was challenged, not just to seek peace, but to PURSUE peace. When I thought about what that meant, I was challenged to, "seek a right relationship with one another". Wow. Not just to run from unhealthy relationships, not just to 'cut that off so it won't hurt me anymore', but to SEEK a RIGHT relationship.
Sometimes I hurt people so much, I don't want others to forgive me. That is when I think I need forgiveness the most. I cannot believe how my words have injured others: my very own brothers and sisters in Christ. I think about how my actions have severely DAMAGED friends and family and cannot believe that the promise of Psalm 34:10 (written above) could still relate to me!? Its so humbling to see the beginnings of reconciliation. I know I'm a long way from it, and there probably is no trust in me right now... but I hope that there will be trusting relationships and sincere reconciliation and a mutual building up in the relationships I have damaged. My heart longs for these things. And my heart is so thankful for these relationships.
Today, I was thinking about my friends who have lost loved ones this week, and I have thought about the woman I served tonight, going through kimo... and the man who works at a funeral home, and how he mentioned casually, 'my work is never done'... and I wonder if it hurts him inside to say things like that sometimes. I walked back into the kitchen at Cracker Barrel and thought to myself, "life is too short to not accept the forgiveness of others for my errors, and to hold grudges".
Relationships will change, and I think that is in there nature. But I'm not sure this life is long enough for any relationships to END. I just hope that other people don't give up on me either! I'm so far from who I want to be... and I'm going to keep working toward who she is... by getting my focus off of myself, and onto the Lord, and his love for others. By seeking peace, and pursuing it.

When it's dark enough, you can see the stars.